While October had just seemed an unreal series of events, especially after mid-month November began to be more real. Though Percy still seemed healthy and active, I began to see slight differences: he did sleep a little more, perhaps, than what I remembered our other puppies doing. There were moments or days where something seemed a little off. But I hoped I was just looking too hard.
Then, after a respite of almost exactly two months, he had his third seizure, late in the evening of November 18. Then his fourth, around 3 a.m. November 22. Those in the middle of the night were surely the worst– perhaps for Percy, robbing him of rest, but certainly for me, coming up from whatever stage of sleep to the sound of Percy’s howl as he began the seizure was pretty horrific. I began to feel the exhaustion of the months I was a new mother with middle-of-the-night feedings, 20 years earlier, but now rather than nurturing my son into life I was watching my puppy die. All I could do when Percy seized was to witness it: I held him as I could without wanting to get in the way of his body movements, and I always spoke to him, wanting to believe my voice somehow made a difference. The seizures lasted perhaps two minutes, and then Percy would come back, and try to get up, but stumbling crazily he would crash into things and fall over. He did not want to be contained or restrained, though, and I did not want to increase his agitation and possibly provoke another seizure. In those first months he consistently urinated during the seizures so I would change his bedding and try to clean his fur– he didn’t like this– and hold him until he would settle again into sleep. And I would eventually drift off myself, wondering when the next one was going to strike.
A few times Nocci’s behavior told me a seizure was coming: once I woke in the middle of the night to see him pacing anxiously, and within a few minutes Percy seized. This was not consistent, and as time passed I wondered if Nocci sort of turned this off; he too wanted some state of grace, to be in denial and if he didn’t predict what he felt was about to happen, maybe it wouldn’t happen. But that of course is my human analysis, and I can’t know.
From those two November seizures there was a lull of just over three weeks.
The lulls allowed me to think that maybe things were getting better, or at least that they wouldn’t get much worse. Our vet had advised thinking of starting Percy on phenobarbital, before the seizures became so frequent and/or severe as to become a determining factor beyond the JRD. But knowing the possible marked side effects, unpleasant especially for such a young dog– lethargy, dullness– I resisted making that step.
In the meantime, Percy was also having digestive issues– he ate well but his stools were consistently extremely loose– like liquid– and voluminous to a point that I wondered if he was absorbing any nutrients. In November, I consulted a holistic vet who practices alternative as well as traditional medicine, and among other supplements we started Percy on powdered colostrum, which healed his digestion almost immediately. Following more bloodwork she also thought Percy could benefit from adrenal cortex injections. I was under no illusion that anything we could do would make his disease go away but I wanted to make his life, what he would have of it, better– more comfortable, more normal, if possible. So I began the injections. Around mid-December the holistic vet also recommended giving Percy fluids through an IV over several days to help his system beyond what his kidneys were unable to do; we began the series. But after the second day Percy had what was now the fifth seizure of his life, December 16; the following night he had another, the first time he had seized on subsequent days, so I ceased the IV flushes. Though there was no way to know if there was a correlation, and logic said giving him the fluids could only help his system by giving his very weak kidneys a rest rather than overload him in any way, I’d become suspicious of everything. I also stopped the adrenal cortex injections.
Percy had the last of this series of seizures December 18. I remember going to get our Christmas tree the following day with one eye on him continually, as there were multiple moments he seemed about to seize. But he didn’t. He was very weak that weekend, not himself– he mostly slept and had none of the puppy energy left, at all. He would go off to the other side of the house to sleep, whether to be alone or because he was hypersensitive to noise and light. But I would continually go to check him, as his going off by himself to sleep could presage a seizure. I feared he would not make it to Christmas. But after a few days he rallied. I continued to resist beginning the phenobarbital– illogically, it may seem in retrospect, but I simply didn’t want to subject him to anything worse than what he had been born with and had to contend with daily. But he seized twice more before the month’s end, and I realized couldn’t ignore that the seizures had to be treated.
November 12 BUN 152, creatinine 4.5, phosphorus 9.8
December 15 BUN 125, creatinine 5.0, phosphorus 13.2





